My new e-book, How to Eliminate Massive Debts with Tiny Payments is online! I know a lot about this subject, as it happens, so I thought I would distil my experience into a quick guide to getting out of debt as fast as possible, even when you can’t afford it. Indeed, especially when you can’t afford it. So many people are, in effect, conned into taking on debts they can’t afford that now the whole world’s economy is busy choosing between a new Great Depression or massive inflation as the best way to eliminate the systemic financial toxicity.

Link: http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/cif-green/2010/jun/18/matt-ridley-rational-optimist-errors

I haven’t read ‘The Rational Optimist’ by Matt Ridley, but I have read this review:

Review

And… it has put me off. It is a book arguing that free, unregulated markets work better than regulated ones, and that the environment is not deteriorating. But, according to the review by George Monbiot, the book is full of blatant distortion. Like not mentioning how relatively free, unregulated markets led to the Credit Crunch, indeed particularly so in Ridley’s own company, Northern Rock (he was chairman of the company!), which needed a GBP £27bn bailout when it crashed due entirely to slack regulation, greed and stupidity (presumably on his part at least). As readers of my blog will know, I’ve forecast this economic depression for a long time now. Who listens? Not people who should know what they’re doing, anyway.

Well, I suppose one can’t talk about the meaning of life without thinking of Douglas Adams, for whom the answer appeared to have been “42″ (in The Hitchhiker’s Guide To The Galaxy“), and indeed, this web site does just that. But he also indirectly makes an important point about the alternative philosophy of nihilism, which states that life, and indeed everything, is meaningless: if everything is meaningless, then so is the idea that everything is meaningless… In other words, the idea that life is worthless is a worthless idea. To me, that means it is false, or might as well be. So nihilism is imploded by its own definition: if true, it must be false.

I expect that is arguable, but it seems close enough for practical purposes. And the purpose of life - its meaning? Altruism. So there.

Here is a recent photo of Douglas Adams, taken at Highgate Cemetery in London.

And here is a quote from him:

“There is a theory which states that if ever anybody discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory which states that this has already happened.”

Douglas Adams has written quite a few books, many of which I have read and enjoyed.

On another subject, I rather liked this rather well-travelled photographer’s travel photos. And the latest Batman movie trailer.

Actually, quite well. The question is, though, how do I figure out how much is still to be done? Today I reached 30,000 words, i.e., 50% of my original estimate of 60,000 words.

However, I am certainly more than halfway through the story. Counting scenes in the script, I am up to scene 86 of 116. That’s 74%. That seems more like it! I think I had better count it that way in future. So, I am almost three-quarters of the way through the first draft. Excellent!

Well, I wrote another 1% of the book today… things are moving on quite rapidly really, on those days when I get some writing done! I still rather feel, though, that things are moving rather more rapidly than I thought originally and I may well be finished a long way before the 60,000 word estimate I started with. Well, we will see.

I have of course been surfing the good old Internet the rest of the time. I was very interested in The Case Against Homework: How Homework Is Hurting Our Children and What We Can Do about It, which says what I have thought for many years (since my school days, indeed): homework is of little benefit, and of much harm to people’s social lives. OK, yes, that is a link to Amazon, but I thought I’d try once again - we’ll see how long it is before Amazon break the link like they usually do. Anyway, I haven’t read that book, but it looks like a good idea to me. I see that there are others making the same point too. Meanwhile, have you wondered what those brighter than normal stars are in the sky? Well, at the moment, it could be the planets Mercury, Venus or Saturn, for example. See which one you’re seeing at Planetfinder [Update - it’s a bit old so you may get Java security warnings, but it used to work harmlessly for me]. For a bit of fun, here’s how to deal with unwanted telesales calls… (video). Alternatively, see if you can spot the difference between a computer geek and a serial killer. I got 8/10. Ain’t no-one going to serialize me! ;-)

I felt like a change, so, since I like blue, I now have a blue blog. I have also got up to 42% of my projected 60,000 words in the Katherine of Alexandria book, and have added a couple of links to the new ‘Links’ bar to the right… Specifically, Calorie Connect, which gives you the calories in various food items on request with a simple but nifty form (with a few curious omissions, such as toast), and Diego Goldberg’s Arrow of Time page - a look at his family down through the years: what a good idea. I’ve no idea who these people are, but it almost makes me want to find out…

Hmm… getting plenty of writing done. Good! More than 1% of my total done today, anyway - can’t be bad!

I had kind of hoped to do more, but I got tired - in fact I got downright sleepy, and a “few minutes” of rest turned into a few hours. Ho hum. Still, if I need the rest, then it is best that I take it.

Later on I did a bit of web surfing. I’ve not been exercising enough lately - it has been slipping gradually for a long time, so I’m back to working on my motivation and thinking, and this time, ways of integrating the exercise into my normal daily routine: I think a “workout” is just rather dull, basically. I have tried a bit of self-hypnosis for it as well, with a free session from mindmedia.com, - Find Your Inner Athlete [Update: well it used to be there, anyway - there’s lots of new stuff there now]. There are also free sessions from the author of that session at mindchanginghypnosis.com. [Update: domain seems to be parked. Sigh.] Hypnosis? Yes, and I know people have this impression that it is something weird and dangerous, but, basically, it isn’t. It is simply a way of learning something more quickly than you might otherwise. Think of it as the same sort of thing as a guided visualization: it is not much different from using your imagination, basically, while your verbal mind is resting (ideally). Anyway, since trying the session a couple of weeks ago, I have indeed been doing a little more exercise - not full-on major sessions, but nevertheless, there has been some improvement.

I have also looked at a couple of web sites that talk about the thinking you need to get in place - similar to my own diet and exercise page actually! But it is good to see other people’s way of putting it too - and I obviously need a bit of extra input from somewhere. The Hussman Fitness site was very interesting and talks about the mindset, and has a good section on what a fitness/weight-loss programme needs to involve (rather a lot of exercise - Hmm…).

Well, I had been thinking that I haven't been getting much writing done, but in fact, it is progressing at a reasonable pace overall - about 17,500 words done now. Maybe I could have done more by now, but I doubt it. Creativity cannot be forced without becoming mediocre, I think. To do my best, I must a) keep at it; and at the same time, b) not over-do it.

Like much of life, the trick is finding the right balance... the middle way.

I have done some 16,000 words or so now - in other words, about a quarter of my projected (guessed at) 60,000 word total. However, when I look at the script, it looks more like I’m nearer halfway through the story… or at least a third of the way through. Maybe it will be a novella rather than a novel. Anyway, there could be more room than I thought available for the non-fiction parts (movie trivia, historical notes and so on).

On another subject (slightly), I often listen to music when I am writing, unless I feel that it is distracting me or messing up the mood. According to this article, some scientists think music makes you smarter! (Original link changed but same article.)

Well, that explains a lot… ;-)

Have I really not written a blog entry since the beginning of the month? It seems like only a week or two. Hmm… well, I suppose it is only two weeks and a few days anyway.

Nevertheless, the writing continues. I have found that I have had more fly swatting to do and less time for writing, but that in fact it has not slowed me down by much. I am managing to do at least one scene a week as before, but in less time. I think that my system of trying to imagine the scenes in my head first - as movie scenes - simplifies the writing process for me. I get to sort out many of the details before I sit at the computer. I can go to a cafe somewhere and stare into space, and imagine my way through the scene.

This is similar to the way computer programs are to be written, some say. You only sit at the computer when you have already planned what you are going to write. If you try to write as you plan, you are likely to end up with chaos, or at least less efficient programs.

OK. I have written more, now up to an estimated 19.9%, at just under 12,000 words written. Agents seem to want around 20,000 to look at, but we need to get moving - plus, if I can get an advance from a publisher that would help production of the book considerably. And, agents all claim to be really choosy, going by the web sites I have seen - but then, if most applicants are rubbish, they would claim that, wouldn’t they? Here we have a decent product and commercial prospect for them.

I doubt that I can write the book any faster, but I could do with an income… this year (and thereafter)! :-)

Well, I am up to 11,000 words. The question is, do I need to create another new scene? I don’t know. And, having done over 18% of my estimated total, all of a sudden the rest looks daunting! Sigh. At least it is Friday. I can spend the next couple of days considering the next scene. Back to the script, or is there something else that could be said?

Well, even though I haven’t written anything for the last few days (I have been planning and… er… procrastinating (a little)), today, the plans having been made, I wrote a whole load and have now done 17.2% of my estimated 60,000 words.

We shall see what tomorrow brings. I still have to complete this planned scene. I am not sure what will follow. The current scene is one that doesn’t appear in the current version of the script and I have not decided whether I need to add another, or maybe even more, at this point. Such extras are tougher to plan than the normal ones of course since the script has been worked on for years already, whereas my extra bits are completely new. But in the book I can include extra detail and characterization that there isn’t necessarily time for in a movie.

Well, I didn’t procrastinate again… or whatever it was. I wrote another thousand words or so and completed another scene. So it was worth the wait.

The next scene or two, I have decided, are going to be added onto this scene, continuing it for a while longer though. I have not written anything for the last two days since then though. I have been… er, procrastinating I suppose, or ‘resting’ anyway, and also reading some of the philosophers that Katherine would have known about - Marcus Aurelius and Seneca in particular. Socrates I already know about.

Well… no writing so far. It is not that I have not felt like writing: instead, it is that I have felt like not writing. Is that the same thing? Normally, not feeling like writing I see as a non-feeling, so I just sit down and write. Today, I positively did not want to write. So, I suppose it is different.

However, maybe it is not so simple. I am aware - or I believe - that sometimes things need to be left alone for a time to allow the subconscious mind to do a bit of long-term processing on the data, separate from the conscious mind. Well, maybe that is it.

However… I notice a feeling too. A slightly daunted feeling. Now that feeling has ‘procrastination’ written all over it.

You see, I have planned out the next scene, playing the people’s actions and the main protagonist’s thoughts out in my head like I’m there, but instead of wanting to write it out quickly like last time to see it working, this time there’s a feeling of, “let’s not bother,” or “it seems like so much to do,” or something along these lines: I already know it will work. So now the idea is that since I know how it goes, why go to all the effort of writing it? These ideas look to me like my verbal mind playing tricks on me. The old inner demon working against me instead of for me, as per Don Miguel Ruiz’s book, The Voice Of Knowledge.

Old habits die hard, don’t they? :-)

OK, I will allow it to pass today. But two days in a row would definitely be procrastination, and that is not going to happen. The inner voice will need to find another excuse for tomorrow. I know from experience that that feeling - being rather daunted, tired, not wanting to bother - has been behind much procrastination in the past; but I am more alert to it these days.

The answer? Don’t think. Sit down and write.

However, today I will rest. I will procrastinate a little. All things have their place. A little leeway, a little sympathy with myself, a gentle pat on the head and a rest can go further than forcing myself against those impulses too strongly. To push too hard would be to invite a counter-reaction. I must enjoy what I am doing. Force is the opposite of that. So I will give myself a break today.

I think the reason I was able to write the last scene so quickly was because I had planned it out in my head beforehand.

Normally, I just sit down and begin writing, but I find that it can be slow going because I get stuck at various points where things don’t work out so well. But with that scene, I had gone over it many times in my imagination, running the scene many times like a movie and imagining the action and the dialogue, and even the thoughts. In that way, I had ironed out many of the wrinkles before I started - things like, who was to be the main protagonist (whose point of view would it be told from), what things were worth showing and what could be skipped, and so on.

So… I have been doing the same thing with the next scene. I only wrote a few words today. I have spent a lot of time, on and off during the day, imagining the scene and the things that are to be said and done. And whose point of view is to be primary. One point of view does help things to hang together, I think. In terms of the action, much of it stays the same, but the one point of view allows me to explore the thoughts and the character of this individual. As well as describing the action, the scene suddenly becomes a scene about that character. The reader learns more about this person than they would otherwise.

Well, I got a fair bit of writing done this week. I am estimating the length of the completed novelization to be around 60,000 words, so I have done about 13% of it so far at 7,800 words (first draft only).

I don’t think I will get very far with finding an agent until I have written more. I get the impression they will need around 20,000 words to read and assess before considering me seriously as a client. I guess they are busy people and get a lot of time-wasters contacting them.

I have been thinking about Katherine’s philosophy somewhat this week. In a film, it is hard to show, except in short sound-byte style, but in a book it ought to be possible to expand on that considerably. However, at this stage I am not clear about how exactly I am going to do that. Instead, I am just continuing to write. I am not making a plan as such (given that I have the script, after all). But I may need to take a little time out to plan that aspect more carefully.

Yesterday rather than writing more, I went back over some of what I had already written to see what might need a bit of clarification, and to decide on some names for certain hitherto unnamed characters. Nevertheless it ended up with a couple more hundred words somehow, taking it over the 6000 words mark. I imagine therefore that I may have written some 10% of the novelization by now in that case, as 60,000 words is OK for a novel, just about. My feeling is that working to a script will tend to make the novelization short, since the plot of a movie cannot be too complicated. I am pondering this in the background: how much can I add? How much will characters’ thoughts change things? I don’t know. For now, I am inclined to just plough ahead, and maybe I will have to do some heavy revision later. Getting something down is, I think, the most important thing for now.

Today, I did no writing or anything, really, except watch all four episodes of Terry Jones’ Barbarians, which is relevant to certain parts of the story. A friend read my coffee grounds (like reading tea leaves, but using Greek coffee) and told me I would reach my goals with slow and steady steps, or something along those lines, and that I was admired and trusted by many people and I deserved to be too. So there. ;-)

Well, how about that? I’ve been forgetting my poor little blog! Anyway, I have done a fair bit of writing, apart from today. Instead, today, I have been trying to plan ahead a bit more. Although I have the movie script as a kind of a ‘plan’ I don’t really want the novelization to be identical with it. There are things that can be written in a book that cannot be shown on a film: that is, thoughts. What are my characters going to be thinking about? How do they think? OK, the actions are mostly predetermined by the script, but the thoughts are not…

I didn’t get to do any writing yesterday as I was busy, out and about and all that. So, I did some today instead even though it is the weekend and even though I didn’t feel like it. However, ‘feeling like it’ isn’t what writing, or most any other task, is about. It is no use waiting until I am in some sort of ‘writing frame of mind’ to begin. Writing gets done by my sitting down at the keyboard and writing. The frame of mind is engendered by the habit of writing: it comes second, in other words. Begin, and the frame of mind will follow.

And indeed it did. Enough for me to manage about half a page today, anyway, which is quite good, in my opinion.

It is possible I can extend this ‘just do it’ kind of habit to other things too. Good habits are useful and worth cultivating as they make it easier to do what you want to do. Bad habits, such as procrastination, prevent you doing what you want to do. Don’t think about it. Begin it. Do it.